Sheesh – has it been a week already???
Thursday – We had a health scare here – my dad’s blood pressure had skyrocketed to 200/100-something. He’s had a lot of problems with eyes lately but his vision was extra blurry. I was scared it was a stroke but it was just a strange, unexplained spike – no stroke. I was scared but he didn’t act or seem scared at all. Perhaps he was being stoic for me – I don’t know – or perhaps he was just too damn bored to be scared. Apparently hospital tv is very limited. Anyway, he’s got a few days off and seems to be feeling right as rain. Whew.
I had a date on Friday night. I haven’t been on a date in quite awhile and it’s still pretty awkward for me. I met a guy at one of the gigs – Nice fella but I didn’t feel that “thing” that I really want, no, need to feel.
To be honest, I feel bad for anyone that tries to date me. My heart still belongs to another and at this point, spending time with another man just feels…wrong. But I’m trying. I think I’m supposed to do that or else I’ll never be able to move on, right? Right?
Saturday was a much more successful outing! I’ve made a new friend at the day job and she lives close by and is a big live music fan so I think a true friendship is in the making! Saturday night, my lovely friend and her charming husband showed me an awesome time at a few local hotspots that I was mostly unfamiliar with. We heard some good music, had a few drinks and it was a just a really great hang.
Sunday: The former Mr. Wonderful and I went to a surprise party for one of our bandmates. I felt quite fetching all decked out in my new polka dotted party dress. The former Mr. W. was gave me “the look” and I knew it was a winner. I refrained from imbibing at the party, decided to play it cool and allow myself be entertained which was easy because my friends and bandmates are freakin’ hilarious!
Today was a weird day though. The former Mr. W. and I had a brief chat. I needed him to know that I was actively moving on because I think he’s just a little too comfortable that I’ll always be sprung on him and that he’ll always have the option of walking in and out of my life just because he has so far. He seems affected by what I had to say and I’m curious to see how things play out.
Because things change and are changing…And tomorrow is another day.
Filed under: Are You Sure I Can't Marry My Band?, I Enjoy Being a Girl, Life is Sweet, Medical Mysteries, My Friends Rock, Pity The Fool That Dates Me, The Heart Wants | Tagged: self esteem, optimism, my band, day job, family, health scare, dating, chemistry, moving on, friends, Mr. Wonderful, Daddy, party dress, relationships, change
I’m glad that your father is well.
We don’t actually know each other so I don’t have any right to give you advice. I’ll give it if you’d like though:)
That doesn’t stop me, mydailylist.
You said it yourself, Amber – the former Mr. W. Wonderfulness is hard to regain once you’ve lost it, and there are others out there.
MDL – you’ve got me email addy.
Jim – I know, but… but…
We are thousands of miles apart and different in so many ways…but oh, how I could have written parts of this. Not as well, though
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[...] Amber: I had a date on Friday night. I haven’t been on a date in quite awhile and it’s still pretty [...]
Yeah, I know. Love lingers around and gets in everything – memories can trap you.. If it’s right, it will happen, if it’s not, it won’t and you’ll continue to be fine.
i still hate dating. i declare my ’situation’ — non-exclusive, ‘hangin out’, nothing serious, then just try to relax and get to know a new human. i still hate it…. but it’s good to get out there. i’ve got a newbie on friday. ugh…
Holly – Ha, my talented writer friend! The heart wants.
Jim – Memories. Exactly. Stupid brain. Thanks for the words of wisdom.
Daisyfae – I still get stuck in yesterdays language – I can’t help it. But I suppose it’s expectations that change it from ‘hangin out’ to ‘dating’. As for your newbie on Friday – what’s his number, I have to warn him.
I love the energy in your writing. Glad you had a good time, hopefully we can rock the Hotel Vernon shiproom this weekend.
Heather – we’ll be like Laverne & Shirley!